My Body Flinched Before My Mind Understood

Dear Delyara, Something happened today that reminded me trauma lives in the body in ways words often fail to catch up with. A sound. That’s all it was. A sudden loud sound in the wrong room at the wrong moment, and my whole body reacted before I even knew what I was reacting to. My shoulders tightened, my breath changed, and for a few seconds I wasn’t where I actually was. I was somewhere older. That feeling is hard to explain to people who think trauma is only memory. Sometimes it’s not a memory. Sometimes it’s a reflex with history inside it.