My body shrinks before my mind finishes the calculation

Dear Delyara, That is how I know money stress has lived in me too long. The reaction comes first. The chest. The narrowing. The future suddenly feeling smaller. The comfort of the current moment becoming morally complicated. Only after that do the actual thoughts complete themselves. I want money to feel more like information and less like threat. Right now, it still knows too quickly how to enter my body as fear. That speed exhausts me.