My goals feel colder than they used to

Dear Delyara, I can still name my goals. I can still explain them. I can still list the logical steps. But I don’t feel them the same way. They have gone colder somehow. Less alive in me. Less connected to excitement and more connected to pressure. I don’t know if that means I’ve grown or if I’m tired or if I’ve simply been disappointed too many times to want cleanly anymore. I miss wanting with warmth.