Old pain still turns small moments louder than they deserve to be

Dear Delyara, That’s how I know it’s still alive. The current moment may be small. The reaction is not. A delay lands larger. A tone cuts deeper. A little uncertainty becomes much more than the facts justify. I know when this is happening. I can feel the amplification. That knowledge doesn’t fully stop it. I think old wounds do not always return as memories. Sometimes they return as volume.