One financial thought can undo my whole mood

Dear Delyara, It still happens too quickly. I can be fine, almost peaceful, then one number enters my mind and suddenly the room tightens. Future becomes math. Comfort becomes questionable. The body becomes wary. That speed is what I’m tired of. Not just the money problem. The immediacy with which it becomes an emotional problem. I want more distance there. More room to think before fear floods in.