Some current feelings still belong partly to older rooms

Dear Delyara, That’s what makes them so hard to regulate. The present happens. And then something older enters before I can stop it. A little silence becomes larger. A small confusion turns sharper. A tone lands where another tone once hurt me. And suddenly I’m not only in today anymore. I’m in the overlap. That overlap is exhausting because it makes proportion difficult. I know when I’m feeling more than the moment itself deserves. Knowing that doesn’t always reduce the feeling. Old rooms still echo through new ones. That’s true in me.