The return of the light to a darkened mind

Dear Delyara, When you are drowning in severe, clinical anxiety, your brain is a constant, terrifying storm of worst-case scenarios, physical panic, and a complete loss of control. I spent eighteen months unable to leave my flat without feeling like the world was about to end. But this afternoon, I walked down to the crowded harbor, sat on a bench, and watched the sailboats move across the water for two full hours. My heart stayed calm, my breathing was deep and regular, and I felt a profound, quiet sense of joy settle over my mind. I didn't panic, and I didn't look for an exit. I was just a human being enjoying a sunny afternoon. My mental health is finally rebuilding its walls, and I am back in the world.